God has rescued me, I lack for nothing. My greatest need, salvation, has been provided for. I lack for nothing. I have a husband, family, and friends who love me. I truly lack for nothing. So why do I feel that something is missing -- that some vital component isn't present? God is perfect and has never failed to provide for me (although I haven't always realized it until later), so whatever is "lacking" is either supposed to be lacking for some greater purpose (and then isn't really lacking in the negative sense of the word), or it's probably my fault. If it's my fault, I need to pray. If it's something that's supposed to be lacking, I need to pray.
I've spent some time praying about this, and I've tried to "step out of my life" in a sense, in order to get a fuller view of what my life really looks like at this point. What does my life look like to others, and more importantly, what does my life look like to God? I thought that maybe as an observer of my own life (it isn't possible to be one unless I look through Another's eyes), I could identify that missing component. And God has revealed it to me. It was never about lacking
anything, for what I need has always been provided. It was about simply refusing to ask for what I needed.
What I thought I lacked was the knowledge of how to best serve the people I'm living among. Because I thought I lacked this knowledge, I also lacked a clear direction for my life, or concrete target to be aiming for. Allow me to explain. I've realized that different areas of Taiwan need different things, in terms of missions that is. I always thought that someday God would call Ian and I to the South, because there are less churches there. It makes sense, right? While that still may be the case someday, I've realized a few things about Taipei. There may be more churches, but that doesn't mean there isn't a lot of work to still be done. In the South of Taiwan, missionaries battle with the usual idol worship, ancestor worship, and poverty. While all of these things certainly exist in Taipei too, there are other things at play. Materialism, unhealthy consumerism, and an identity crisis of sorts. Are we Chinese or Taiwanese? Which is better, Western or Eastern culture? Of course the South deals with these issues too, but I see a high concentration of it here in Taipei. And it's quite common in Taipei to meet a Christian who goes to church and then visits a fortune teller all in one day. Again, it's that blending of Eastern and what they perceive as "Western" culture. I know a lot of people that attend church and then go and spend thousands of dollars shopping at Sogo and buying LV purses (maybe it wouldn't be as terrible if they were also giving to the poor, but the ones I am speaking of don't). That's the good ol' materialism and unhealthy consumerism for you. I don't know what to say to these kinds of people. It would be easier for me if they were poor or didn't profess to be Christians. But the people I'm speaking of, these people that are not at all uncommon in Taipei, don't even know that they're severely lacking.
How do you tell people who don't believe they're lacking that they are indeed lacking? I know God will guide me and help me to show them. He will provide everything I need for this endeavor because with Him, I lack for nothing.